face my fears

i know that i have issues.
i dont need you to tell me that. everyone else does it plenty.
really it hasnt even been 24 hours.
her best friend?
what is that?!
if i was her[which im NOT] i would be so upset. i never thought id say this but i feel bad for her.
ive heard of "on the rebound" but be for real. her best friend?
i thought i was bad.
you are the icing on the "im gonna be a 50 year old unmarried man with 35792436727 kids" cake.
hahahaha. that was good.

but really, you think you can hurt anyone and its not gonna change my opinion about you.
you need to put your priorities in order, and love yourself before you can love anyone else without always being scared of getting hurt.
maybe that will teach you. if it doesnt i will.
im gonna tell you exactly how i feel.
maybe not.
but youre gonna get a reality check.
and i hope that it hits you HARD! no one.
not even a liar like her deserves that. nd i hope you BURN for it.
i know, you think im being stupid.
im just this silly little girl who doesnt know anything about being in a relationship and loving someone.
if i dont know shi then teach me.
how wil i ever learn if you dont give me a chance.
youre so worried about me getting hurt, but you dont realize youre the one hurting me.
i would never actually tell you this, but i think you know.
you cant go on denying whats there.

so im scared of you.
prove to me that i shoudnt be.

but for now.
all i can do is wait and play my cards right.
so when you decide you want to grow up come see me.
=/