Moshing to the music, I can do anything
Freaky deeky star speckles and pink butterflies
and life is nice, so nice.
I walk into a club and Ive found paradise,
Im seeing stars, I cant believe my eyes
I'm seeing stars

so for today sucking so horribly, im in a pretty okay mood.

so i fealt like death when i got up this morning. my stomach hurt so bad. i wanted to cry. it hurt because i had a really bad panick attack last night. i was hysterical. looking back on it, i had a right to be. my mom said i couldnt see seth today. i was so mad. then she took my phone. i was freaking out. it took sammm yelling at me to even calm me down a little. i dont know what id do without her. i love that girl.

at the moment im listening to this guy named matt wertz. he sings this song called all i know. and i am in love with it. and this song by motion city soundtrack called perfect teeth just came on. bahahaha. its like my anthem. i have this thing with teeth. its pretty funny. seth has PERFECT teeth. its amazing.

so for 4th of July weekend im going down to the grand-rents trailer. on this little island off virginia. im hyped. im gonna miss seth bnad though. it shoudl be funish still. rides. and the beach.

they just cant trust what they cannot feel.

baby do what you do. lemme see ya let down yurr hurrr.

lmfao. im feelin a tad gangster today. i was playing fight night earlier. i suckk. lol. and then i tried SOCOM. im ever more horrible at that. you know who can really dance? Chris Brown. i think i love him. hes adorable. and he can turn like no other. woah. watch outt. bahaha. i am so hyper. and $3+# is coming over laterr. ohh emm geee. he sang with Elmo on sesame street. that was so cute. it was all about signs. :]]

i am so bored. seth just called and said he moght not be coming overr. :[ i miss him. im not gonna see him for like 5 days. im a tad upset. and hes like really upset.

ergh.
[13:54] dalton7752: ur amaizing ur beautiful ur carein understainding and u be ur self ur not fake u show who u are and u dont care what anyone say they got a prom u kick their ass

so 4th of july should be okayish. im going down to the island. with the fam. but w/o seth. thats where the ish part comes in. ima miss that kid. tomorrow is our 1 month. im so hyped.

the pichure at the top is from a project on Spain me and marissa did together. lol. <3

so he found the jar. and im perfectly okay with that. because i love him. :]

thats all i can say.

theres something happening here.
what it is aint exactly clear.

omg. im so happy i have amazing friends. i love them all so much. they really are life savers. idk what i would do without themm. they are the best. [psht. my friends are better than yours.]

so i decided that a small part of his b-day present is a notebook. that notebook will have a letter to him for every day from now til his actualy birthday. September 9th. im so hype.

everytime we touch i get this feeling.
everytime we kiss i swear i could fly.
cant you feel my heart beat fast.
i want this to last.
i need you by my side.

im actually listeinng to that song right noww. its pretty trendyy. i love it. i laughed so hard when the band My Parasites redid it and called it everytime we ****. it was pretty funny. i was actually with jimm when i heard that song. [irony] lol i miss jim. i havent seen him since we went to the movies. :[ i love that kid. hes like a brother. i miss him so much. we need to chill soon. before he becomes too cool for me. lol.

so im going to seths today. and i have recital laterss. im pretty happy. i havent seen him since wednesday. sadness. ell ohh ell. islands in the stream by kenny rogers and dolly parton just came on. bahaha. islands in the stream. that is what we are. :p


i feel like going to Hollister. idk why. i just want to. but it wont be the same without Ian and Steve. we had a dance party in that store. it was HXC. no it wasnt actually. it was pretty sexual. lmfao. i miss dyveda.

bahaha. i just found a pair of this HUGE sun glasses. they are blue stars. [happiness]

im gonna go finish getting ready.
i love you.
:D

out on the moon lit floor.

so im going to daddys for the weekend. ill have muh phone. so text me. i love yeww.

well cant you see that its just raining. aint no need to go outside.

slamm will be there. with me. little slamm. my slamm.

bye.
<3

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

what am i saying. i miss you. like crazy. it hurts to admit it. its like im realizing that i was lying to myself all along. and im stupid. i know. i just cant do it. i want it like it used to be. when you said it back. when you were there. whenever i needed you to be. when we were the best of friends. inseprable. when i was your little sister. when i wasnt always sick worrying about you. and when things were easier. i love you. i dont want to be with you. i just want you to love me back. i dont need all those promises. i just want to be friends again. im never going to stop wanting that. even if i say it over and over that i dont. i always will. and i will always have time for you.

im so stupid.
i love you.
and i dont want you hurt.

it seems like as soon as i think everything is going to be okay you have to pop back in and screw everything up. i was happy. i was okay without you. i was living normally. but you decided you missed me so you just had to come ruin everything that took me so long to put back together. now i have to start all over. it hurts me. a lot. more than you know.

I picked you up and lifted your wilted frame into the sun.
I was taken back,
Yeah i was taken back,
And by the time i caught my breath,
You had blossomed into something that I did not expect.

oh my. i love him. so much. and im sorry for that.

with or without you. well make it through.

why did i think things would be different? youre still the same liar i dealt with last time. you cant stand not being the center of the universe so you feel the need to make other people miserable. guess what. youre not going to bring me down this time. im not going to be sick worrying. im better off without you. a lot better. and maybe now i wont have to be scared of you taking things away from me now. not seth or anything. it was the last straw when you called me a liar to my face. get your facts straight before you start talkig crap. seriously. i dont need you. nobody likes you. god. when are you going to notice that. youre always going to be used and walked all over. stop balming it on the freaking pills. and take responsibility for your actions. grow up. really now. youre not always going to have someone to pin the blame on. im not going to sit here and let you talk to me like this. im not your freaking dart board. and i hope you know i never want to see your face again. you make me so sick. go die.

sunlight. sunshine. all for you my daisy.

So many times you won.
So many souls you burned.

i just feel really good today. im just really happy. like its amazing. im so hyper. its crazayy. i love it. im not exactly sure why though. it may have something to do with the fact that he remembers that i exist.

lmao. so i just called kylie-la and her mommy answered. and me being so hyper, i was all like HIII. and she didnt continue the happiness. which made it akward. but its w/e.

awhh. seth doesnt feel well. poor babe. his tummy hurts. i hope he gets better by tomorrow. i love that boyy. XD

oh emm gee. i had to spread the love. Burlap to Cashmere are amazing. i just heard about them today. and they make me extremely happy. <<3333

ergh. i hhate when im really hyper and happy and whatnot, and no one else wants to do anything. it kinda brings me down. but oh well.

i feel like singing. im so happy. and i dont care about anything.

There's a place where I come from
It's the place where I belong
Where you will never die
Wipe the tears off from your eyes
Sun and moon and stars above
Never match this perfect love
Just look to the painter's hands
Like an ocean meets its sand.

i love you
:p

It came as no surprise.
You bring me back to life.
Believe me.
You bleed for me,
I'll bleed for you.
I caught you walking through walls.
Drowned with applause,
From the world that makes me crazy.

so yeah. im going to church today. jerry was going to come. to chill. but he has work. oh well. lol. im so bored. i had leftover mac and cheese fo breakfast. and apparently i cant type for crud this morning. so forgive my spelling errors. XD

so i am so confused. one time and the "lo" word is present? LIAR. lol. seriously. i bet he doesnt even know what the word means. maybe if he would get his fat *** out of bed and answer his dang phone i could tell him. but nooo. he decided to stay up all night. and be stupid. and send me stupid texts. my boyfriend is ticked. lmao. maybe he will beat him pretty. trendy. hah. i could picture them fighting. lol. that looks like fun. i think i may just try that. lol.

man im craving so wawa. like crazy. i want a milkshake. and a hoagie. or some KONA coffee. yummm. bring me some wawa jerry. now. not kidding.

oh well.
time for tooth brushing.
i love you.
:]

[17:26] dalton7752: dalton7752 (4:14:51 PM): yo you little cunt leave ashly alone
ManpritPimp (4:15:27 PM): oh stop it seth
dalton7752 (4:15:55 PM): i ant nno fuckin seth
ManpritPimp (4:16:03 PM): oh stop it dalton
dalton7752 (4:16:18 PM): na im good leave her alone
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ManpritPimp (4:16:44 PM): heyyy how u no herrrrrrrrrrrr
dalton7752 (4:17:02 PM): dont worry about it
[17:27] dalton7752: ManpritPimp (4:17:10 PM): k fagot
dalton7752 (4:17:22 PM): ight fuckin little bitch
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ManpritPimp (4:18:08 PM): you get noooooo chicks
dalton7752 (4:18:18 PM): ya ok
dalton7752 (4:18:42 PM): u dont kno me
ManpritPimp (4:19:14 PM): i have people
[17:27] dalton7752: dalton7752 (4:19:37 PM): o u have to hace people to fight ur fights cuz ur to big of a pussy
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really. i met him. hes AMAZING. :]

dance all night to this DJ

so there is this show in Pitman. my cousin is the manager for the band. i kinda want to go. but i dont have a ride. and i know if i go, b/c hes gonna be there, seth will be really on edge. i dont want to upset him. so im prolly not gonna go. its just better that way.

[16:22] dalton7752: hello
[16:22] MachineGunAshley: um ash walked away from the computer for a mintues
[16:23] MachineGunAshley: this is her lil sister
[16:23] MachineGunAshley: sammy
[16:23] dalton7752: ight thx
[16:23] MachineGunAshley: no prob
[16:23] MachineGunAshley: so i hear things about you
[16:24] dalton7752: what things
[16:24] MachineGunAshley: she tells me youre funny
[16:24] MachineGunAshley: and some of the stuff you
[16:24] MachineGunAshley: say
[16:24] MachineGunAshley: >.< rawr
[16:24] dalton7752: wow
[16:25] dalton7752: she say anythin else
[16:25] MachineGunAshley: um
[16:25] MachineGunAshley: [thinking]
[16:25] MachineGunAshley: i dont remember
[16:25] MachineGunAshley: she probably did though
[16:25] dalton7752: ya she got seth tho
[16:26] MachineGunAshley: he kinda scares me
[16:26] MachineGunAshley: hes funny tho

so i hate my little sister. lmfao. kidding. i love that girl.

youre so dumb. i hate you. youre disgusting. and i hope you know that i never want to see you again. i want you to burn for what you said. you really hurt someone. not just me. i dont think you realize that im not your little girl anymore. youre not my hero anymore. i know now that youre not always right. youre not superman. you are a failure who needs to always blame other people for your problems. grow up. seriously. maybe one day youl figure out that its not my fault. its your own. youre the only one that can clean this up. maybe then il listen to your stupid apologies for ditching me. or yelling at me. or telling me im stupid or worthless or a slob. maybe then will you be able to fix things. just. for your sake. hope i stick around that long. cause one day im leaving. and im never coming back. what will you do then? cause youl know that i left with a horrible opinion of you. i hope you have to live with that guilt.

i love you.
:(

im really sorry you feel that way. it makes me so sad to see you like that. i wish i could just give you a hug and tell you that everythings going to be okay. but i cant. and im sorry. thats the worst part. i cant help you. i want to. i really do. with all my heart. but its something only you can do. i want you to be able to feel my happiness. to know that there is nothing that can hurt you. i want you to be happy. thats all. and no matter what. im never going to want any different. i promise.

if he does what i think hes going to do. i swear. i will never talk to him again. as long as i live.

idk anymore.

i love old people. they are the cutest things. they make me so happy. i was watching America Choppers today. and it was the episode where they make the Yankees bike and Paul Sr.s mo <3s the yanks. and she gets to like meet them all. and she got all excited. and happy. and "omg its derek jeeter" and i thought it was just the cutest thing. i got so excited. i was screaming. and jumping up and down. youd think i just cured cancer. i was so happy. i almost recorded it just so i could watch it over and over.

just so you know. you cant destroy me. i wont let you.

i love you.
:/

green finch and linnet bird. nighting gale black bird. how is it you sing?

1. my name is ashley
2. my middle name is lauren
3. i love meeting new people
4. i love seth
5. im not quiet
6. i hate it when people tell me im annoying
7. i dance
8. music keeps me sane
9. i love being surrounded by people
10. i am scared of the dark
11. i have a fear of being alone [not single, alone]
12. im a movie buff
13. i love my family
14. were so close its crazayy
15. i love acoustic covers of good songs
16. i want someone to throw rocks at my window and serenade me from the street side
17. i cant sing
18. but i do it anyway
19. my favorite teacher ever is Mr. Sammis
20. twas Pirelli's Miracle Elixer
21. my favorite movie is Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
22. i forget things easily
23. my natural hair color is chestnut
24. my eyes are really dark
25. im short. 5'4"
26. i love the songs from the Goofey Movie
27. i am anti war
28. im a pacifist
29. i dont want to hit you. but that doesnt mean i wont
30. i have seperation anxiety
31. im scared of the dentist
32. i hate needles. they make me faint
33. at this very moment it is 11:55 AM
34. i get attached too easily
35. i love fun little words like trendy trillz and kiddo
36. i am really bad at following directions
37. i <3 the 90s (lol ty)
38. i get chased by dogs alot
39. i hate changing plans
40. im not very punctual
41. i love my laugh
42. i have a locket that i wear every day and never take off
43. i wish i lived in the 80s
44. i used to have a scene mullet
45. i love dying my hair
46. i need constant change
47. girls just wanna have fun
48. i attempt to play the guitar all the time
49. one time, i tried to play the violin. it was bad
50. i hate when people dont call me back
51. we will probably get along famously
52. i used to think i couldnt live without this one person
53. im learning how to though
54. sometimes i wish i could fly
55. im leaving one day. and never coming back
56. goo goo dolls is BOSS
57. i love God with all my heart
58. my friends are better than yours
59. my secret obsession is celtic music
60. i still suck my thumb
61. i have braces
62. i give second chances
63. asdfghjkl
64. i dont cry too much
65. stupid things make me upset
66. i have a horrible sense of direction
67. i still have all my BSB cds
68. i break into random song
69. this is my favorite number. jkjkjk lololol
70. i cant stand liars
71. unless its me and marissa having a lying week
72. that makes you larger than life
73. i have a secret identity
74. i hate when people boss me around like im their slave
75. im usually the center of a large circle of jokes
76. getting poked fun at doesnt bother me
77. i get really hyper
78. im super fly
79. you are not ugly. and im not better off without you
80. im pretty silly
81. i have a happy dance
82. i still love boy bands from the 90s
83. im probably the biggest nerd EVER
84. RIP Nacho
85. i hate fakers
86. i own a hair brush microphone
87. i used to have nightmares about being stuck in a jazz aerobics class
88. i hate unicycles
89. say no to babies
90. seth wants me to put i like porno. but i dont want to
91. i hate when people cant take a hint
92. i cant stand being ditched
93. get down on it. backstreets got it
94. i could jam in my room for hours
95. i text like a crack addict
96. i party like a rock star
97. crowd surfing = love
98. you cant break me down
99. my mind is in the gutter
100. i hate being dirty
101. i love asians!!!

<3

i make myself sick. what did i do to myself. its like im failing now. nothing i do is good enough for you. im sorry im not perfect. i dont try to be. but does that give you an excuse to put me down? that is just sad. youre upset because your life just isnt good enough for you so you have to make other people feel beneath you . lift yourself up. im done holding you. i sick of taking all the blame for your mistakes. trust me. i dont need the extra stress. i just want you to stop. realize that everytime you do that you rip me apart even more. im eager to please. and i think thats why you walk all over me. im not stupid. i can tell when you are really asking me for help, or asking me to take care of your responsibilities. im not your freaking slave. you cant just order me around and expect me to do what you say. you left me alone. a long time ago. i stopped caring about what you have to say when you told me my opinion doesnt matter. i hope you read this and realize its you who im talking about. and know that im never going to look at you the same again. its sad how i cant even trust you anymore. maybe someday il forgive you. but dont hold your breath.

better yet. go ahead. hold your breath.

i love you.
:[

so i think he forgot about me. maybe its better this way. if he isnt constantly popping in and out of my life it will be easier for me to learn to live without him. maybe i ca go back to normal. when things were simpler. and easier to handle. once something happens you get over it. he was impossible to get over. it was like a car crash. its always there. no matter what you get. or give. youre always gonna know it happened. even if they forget. you wont. but you still keep going. and try to put it behind you. no matter how much it hurts. you have to remember there are better people in the world. SHUT UP.

gosh. who am i kidding.
come back to me.
please.

i love you.

i really wish i knew the words to that song. it makes me really happy. the title means the world is ours. :] it was the song for the cricket world cup a while ago. i jusst really love it. a lot. <3

Your love's a gathered storm I chased across the sky
A moment in your arms became the reason why
And you're still the only light that fills the emptiness
The only one I need until my dying breath
And I would give you everything just to
Feel your open arms
And I'm not sure I believe anything I feel

so maybe you think im dumb. that im setting myself up to fall. but i dont care what you think. i really dont. my head lost to my heart. sometimes i want to drop everything im doing and just run to him and tell him everything thats bothering me. i know. it still young. i shouldnt be in love. but i am. so get over it. primary resistance at a critical low.

i love you

im going away for the weekend. and at the moment im listening to MMM Bop by Hanson. it makes me happy. and im on the phone w/ kylie-la. lol.

peace.
i love you

i hate when people cant just give me a straight answer. no strings attached. no maybes. it just makes me realyy angry. i hate being this mad. i feel like im not in control anymore. like i dont have any say in what happens. it really upsets me. and then i get more mad. because im trying to control what makes me upset. ugh. im an emotional train wreck. i hate myself. really. why cant i just shut up. and take it. goshh. im so stupid. i dont deserve anything. ugh. skfjghihohrkhgkb

why does everything always go wrong. i had plans. fun plans. ice cream. but noo. stupid maybes. ugh. i hate this. i love him. why is that so wrong? tell me. cause sometimes i think im being punished for getting so caught up in justin. its like im not allowed to be ovr him. cause as soon as i did. i fell in love again. and for some reason everyone is against it. why cant they just be happy for me. stupid.

Well I can't tell you where I'm going, I'm not sure of where I've been
But I know I must keep travelin' till my road comes to an end
I'm out here on my journey, trying to make the most of it
I'm a puzzle, I must figure out where all my pieces fit
Like a poor wayfaring stranger that they speak about in song
I'm just a weary pilgrim trying to find what feels like home
Where that is no one can tell me, am I doomed to ever roam
I'm just travelin', travelin', travelin', I'm just travelin' on

Questions I have many, answers but a few
But we're here to learn, the spirit burns, to know the greater truth
We've all been crucified and they nailed Jesus to the tree
And when I'm born again, you're gonna see a change in me

God made me for a reason and nothing is in vain
Redemption comes in many shapes with many kinds of pain
Oh sweet Jesus if you're listening, keep me ever close to you
As I'm stumblin', tumblin', wonderin', as I'm travelin' thru

I'm just travelin', travelin', travelin', I'm just travelin' thru
I'm just travelin', travelin', travelin', I'm just travelin' thru

Oh sometimes the road is rugged, and it's hard to travel on
But holdin' to each other, we don't have to walk alone
When everything is broken, we can mend it if we try
We can make a world of difference, if we want to we can fly

Goodbye little children, goodnight you handsome men
Farewell to all you ladies and to all who knew me when
And I hope I'll see you down the road, you meant more than I knew
As I was travelin', travelin', travelin', travelin', travelin' thru

I'm just travelin', travelin', travelin', I'm just travelin'
Drifting like a floating boat and roaming like the wind
Oh give me some direction lord, let me lean on you
As I'm travelin', travelin', travelin', thru

I'm just travelin', travelin', travelin', I'm just travelin' thru
I'm just travelin', travelin', travelin', I'm just travelin' thru

Like the poor wayfaring stranger that they speak about in song
I'm just a weary pilgrim trying to find my own way home
Oh sweet Jesus if you're out there, keep me ever close to you
As I'm travelin', travelin', travelin', as I'm travelin' thru

lmao.
pointless blog.
oh well.
it was fun while it lasted.
i love you.
:]

I will never be affraid again
I will keep on fighting till the end

so today. wow. today. school was boring. we sat in the art room for gym b/c it was so hot. thats about the only thing worth typing. but when i got home... i walked in and my mom wanted to "talk." she thought me and seth were doing the derb. we ARENT. i promise. i have a promise to keep. it was all over a silly fake text message. w/e. then we got into talking about my dad. i love him. but sometimes he just makes me mad. like he gets mean. and he is one of those people you cant talk to about their problems. he gets so uptight. i just dont know what to do.

so seth is the only thing i look forward to anymore. everything else is pretty much a let down. somethings just dont make me happy anymore. i dont know why. i think im broken. like soemthing is wrong with me. seriously. i think it might be because i am realizing that not everyone who i thought i could trust is worth my time.

whatever.
im not even gonna worry about it anymore.
i love you.
:[

Don't hold me up now,
I can stand my own ground
I don't need your help now
You wont let me down

so i fibbed a little. i care alot. i shouldnt. it shouldnt bother me that were drifting apart. i didnt do anything wrong. but its killing me. i cant sleep. i just want to go. far away. where nobody knows me. where i can start fresh. not be known as the girl everyone walks all over and that gets atached too easily. i can do something with my life. instead of living in your shadow. maybe you think i need you. but i have an identity of my own. something that only i can have. something no one can touch. im not ginna let this change me. granted a large part of me will take a while to heal, ill be fine. eventually. ill need help. but i can do it. whatever.

so i have fallen. hard. its actually not as bad as everyone makes it seem. its kinda nice. im always happy. even when im being broken down. i just think about him, and suddenly i dont feel so small. you can call it stupid if you please. i really couldnt care less. im done with always worrying about what you think. he is mine. and i am his. that is what matters.

i love you
:/

i wanna hold your handddd.

so im sitting in my office w/ kylie-la. and were chillen. she wanted to get her hurrrr cut. but by the time i came back from dance it was too late. i was at dance w/ seth all day. ughh. it was so boringg. but it was nice b/c fell asleep and it was cute. i was really uncomfortable but w/e.

i just did a little head dance thing. and it was laugh-y.

so what would you do if someone asked you to chose between two rad as heck people? yeah. i was TICKED. [i hope kylie reads this] what would you do? surrisly. <3

so tomorrow me and kylie and seth are going to churchhh. funn. he bought his first ever polo. it is blue and red from old navyy. its so cute. he looks amazing in it. HA. i told you soooo.

for some reason i cant explain.
tell me. tell me why the sun is shining out here in jerseyy.

so maybe i do. what are you gonna do about it? really. you cant control me. you think you have everyone under your thumb. but alot more people than you know hate you. youre so controling and vindictive. youre 2 faced. youre conceited. youre just a *****. why does it matter to you? really. you act like you tell me everything. but you dont. i know you keep secrets. you dont have to lie anymore. im done.

i love you[you KNOWWW]
:/

"If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger."

"Our purest joy comes when people we envy get hurt. That most genuine form of joy."

"I'll walk where my own nature leads me. It vexes me to choose another guide."

It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of ANNABEL LEE;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.

I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea;
But we loved with a love that was more than love-
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.

And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsman came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.

The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me-
Yes!- that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.

But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we-
Of many far wiser than we-
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee.

For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling- my darling- my life and my bride,
In the sepulchre there by the sea,
In her tomb by the sounding sea.


"Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same."

"Say no to babies."

"So nothing is ever good or bad unless you think it so, and vice versa. All luck is good luck to the man who bears it with equanimity."

"I tell you I must go! Do you think I can stay to become nothing to you? Do you think I am an automaton?-a machine without feelings? And can bear to have my morsel of bread snatched from my lips, and my drop of living water dashed from my cup? Do you think, because I am poor, obscure, plain, and little, I am soulless and heartless? You think wrong!"

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe

wow. so today. is gonna be amazing. promise. new dress. shoes. pizza. seth. it sucks that marissa cant come. :[

so i really want to see dave matthews band in concert. like a lot. i love their music. it makes me smile. its so upbeat. and most of it is about sex and drugs. great message. lol.

so this weekend.
saturday:
seth might come to my dance rehersal. then were coming back to my house. to chill. then kylie is prolly commin overr. to get her huurrrr cut and died. then she will prolly end up sleeping overrr.

sunday:
church w/ sethh and kyliee. then were gonna try to get the boys to come over so she can see danny. then were gonna chill.


next thursday is my graduation. i dont really want to go to the dance. i want to skip. but im probably not going to. im going out to get my dress tonight. pichuress later.

Our purest joy comes when people we envy get hurt. That most genuine form of joy.

i love you.
<3

who can you relax around and scratch your balls.

wow. so i love that the first line of most of my blogs are lyrics to a songg. it makes me and caseyyy laugh. ha. so im in language arts. its funn. we have a substitute. shes mean. i dont like her. but she lets us do whatever. its chill. kevin just called my mom stupid and creepy and i told him tht if he didnt stop i wouldnt hesitate to punch him in his face. then he got all defensive. im pissed now. whatever.

after school me and my mom and seth are going to the mall. im getting my dress and seth is getting a polo for sunday. im so excited. hes getting a yellow one. because its my favorite color. <3. hes so cute. i miss him. he didnt go to school today b/c he had to go get his physical for football. ha. poor him. he slept over his grandrents. theyre so nice. :]]. yumm. lunch in like 10 minutes.

so next year ima be a freshman. he will be a sophmore. casey is my new locker partner. ha. us. one locker. death. sounds like fun. im hyped.

so im bored.
ill tell you about my weekend later.
bye.

all my troubles seemed so far away.

:]
so yesterday. wow. yesterday. happiness. crazy happiness. moooovies. ha. your grandmother. house of 1000 corpses. darkness falls. FRIED CHICKEN! lmao. if you only kneww. [stop. im ticklish. hahaha] i dont laugh. i scream. or maybe ort.

i have never smiled so much in my lifee. i was comfortable. it made me happy. really happy. his parents are amazing. they are so laid back. his sibs are pretty cool too.

bahaha. my dad just called me tiffany. that is a big insult around my house. i made him take it back. it made me maddd. lmfao.

i was like good gracious ass is bodacious. im so hyper.

Drop it down, raise it up

Side to side, left to right

Lick your lips, flip your hair

Watch him sweat over there

High heels, make-up, fake eyelashes

Look at you, you're so damn plastic!

Acrylics on with orangey skin

That lipo really made you thin



Tease it, spray it, make it big

Your hair's so big it's like a wig

Your skirt is short, your top is low

Speed it up, it's way too slow!

You like it when I rock my hips,

so why you starin' at my tits?

So go to him and make him work

for what he's got and how you twirk



Look over here!

and let me see that body rock

Get over here!

I know you like what I've got

Look over here!

and let me see that body rock

Get over here!

I'll show you what I've got

Okay!



Cigarettes, 80 proof

Take my picture, I'm so damn cute!

Fake ID's, lots of cash

Race that Benz, we go real fast

2 a.m. and I'm still goin'

Pour my drink, it's overflowin'!

Take me home, rough me up

No one's here so lets just fuck!



Let me see you break it down

on the floor, to the ground

He's so hot with all those tats

Especially in that LA hat

Diamond plugs, septum rings

I Like Money! Bling, bling, bling!

Here's my number, hit me up

We're livin' life!

You know whats up



Look over here!

and let me see that body rock

Get over here!

I know you like what I've got



Millionaires are here to stay

Watch your boys, we're here to play



Millionaires are here to stay

Watch your boys, we're here to play

Look over here!

and let me see that body rock

Get over here!

I know you like what I've got

Look over here!

and let me see that body rock

Get over here!

I'll show you what I've got


sethh. :]
bye.

so i realized that some people hate the word maybe. like me. i always feel like im left in the dark when people say maybe. i feel like it could go either way. like their not sure about me. it makes me sad.

so today after school im going to my boyfriends house. im excited.

so we have this sub in LA. hes a youngin. he was a football player in my HS. hes soo flyy. kylie just walked up to him and asked if she could use her phone to call will, and he said that if she got caught it was on her. he didnt care. hes pretty funn. i cant believe that he doesnt care. it makes me smilee. i wish i had service in school. :]]] so i m like really happy right now.

so i just realized that justin is still #2 on my myspace. like i dont go on to change it.

HA. im so nervous about going to seth's.

I know a bot,
her name is Anna, Anna is her name
And she can ban you, ban you all so hard
She cleans up our channel
I want to tell you that I know a Bot

I know a bot,
her name is Anna, Anna is her name
And she can ban you, ban you all the same
She cleans up our channel
I want to tell you that I know a Bot

That always watches everyone in our channel
And sees that there is no trouble in here
And it can no way be taken over
And remember, I know a Bot

The bot that nobody can hit
And she can kick when she wants
She kicks all the spammers
Yeah, nothing can hit our Bot

[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/a4 ]
(Ready for take off)

(Are you ready?)

A day has come, I couldn't believe my eye
The channel was strange
I could never have thought to be so wrong
But Anna said to me "I'm not a Bot,
I'm really, really nice girl"
You have been very strange for me
I have nothing to tell
In my eyes you are still a bot

Her name is Anna, Anna is her name
And she can ban you, ban you so hard
She cleans up our channel
I want to tell you that I know a Bot

That watches everyone in our channel
And sees there is no trouble in here
And it can no way be taken over
And remember, I know a Bot

The Bot that nobody can hit
And she can kick when she wants
And she kicks all of the spammers
Yeah, nobody can hit our bot

im scared his mom will hate me. like im usualy not this bent over how people think about me. but i have this urge to please her. i know. its really stupid. like, there is no reason for her to like me. but idk. ughh.

so the guyy at the top is the sub. hes cool. i just hope he doesnt rat us all out. idont think he will. hes fresh outta HS. hes still a trouble makin footballer. lmfao. :]