undone

And I said, "what about 'Breakfast at Tiffany's?'"
She said, "I think I remember the film
And as I recall, i think, we both kind of liked it"
And I said, "well that's, one thing we've got"

so theres this kid. and were bffs. and i miss that kid. we havnt chilled since easter. and im sad. i just spoke to him. and it was like we still talk every day. and that made me happy. he really is BOSS. but sometimes when were together everyting seems rushed. its akward. but im determined to make it easy. one time we were in his car. i was riding shotgun. and he started singing with the radio. and i was like "do you always sing" and he goes "no. youre just easy to sing to." now mind you. i dont like him like that. really. i dont. it just made me happy that he recognized how close we really are. like we know things about eachother no one else knows. and i like that. its like secret. we used to hang out all the time. every saturday to be exact. and once in a while in between. we would do silly things like have food fights. or talk about stupid people. he tells me stories about him and his family and friends. i listen. and thats how its always been. i was there for him. he was there for me. i just want it to be like that again. i hope i can be. because i almost lost him once. not again. no.

i love you.