stark

"Well, I guess it would be nice. If I could touch your body. I know not everybody has got a body like you."

so sometimes i just really want to lick his skin off. like not even kidding. i just want him all to myself. no one else to barder with. no one to reckon with. nothing holding me back. thats all i want. its not much right? just one minute alone with him, without obstacles. and i can prove im worth it. like not just worth "it" but worth everything. i want to be worth his everything. ugh. dam my life. i hate obstacles. right now there is a huge wall between us. hopefully, soon enough, he'll realize that he is the only one that can tear it down. i just wish that i could show him, teach him how he has that power. i just dont want to ruin it for myself and stick my nose where it doesnt belong. i know in the end ill end up either screwing everything up miserably, or getting exactly what i wanted.

i guess exactly what i said wouldnt happen, happened.

im falling.

a-freaking-gain.