The cry of the city like a siren's song. Wailing over the rooftops the whole night long. Saw a shooting star like a diamond in the sky. Must be someone's soul passing by.

heh. heh. so im listening to the ladder 49 soundtrack. XD. but that movie is actually sad. ergh. sad movies kill my buzz. b u z z k i l l. lol. so tim slept over last night... interesting. nate and evan were over earlier. it was fun i guess. they are an odd pair of kids. lol. them + boredom + nerf guns + my window = woww. lollerss. hmm. now O Town is on... olddd. that remindss me of Jacy's party. when i was dancing with Evan, and Ricky was dancing with Jacy, and me and Ricky were singing to eachother. rofl copter. lol. im gonna stop writing pointless blogs. theyre pointless. and stupid.

hmm.

xoxo.

secret #2- my tongue is sharp, but your stares hurt more.

asdfghjkl. ergh. i hate my life. lol. jk. <3

skfjgeklt.

evan's here. were having a party. lol. jk. so... yeah. this blog was pointless. epic. lol. really epic. bahaha. i love myself.

yay for pointless blogs.

XD

i love evann.

evan wants a mullet. like seriously? thats nasty. honkey. :P

JIZZ

secret #1- sometimes i forget to breathe.

Have I found you. Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth. Big pill looming.

a friend once told me you like someone for their promising features. you love them for their flaws.

so i guess the old saying, you cannever really appreciate something until youve lost it is true. i had a dream last night that the red car pulled up outside his house. and his mom wasnt home, so i went to see what happened. [for those of you who dont know what the "red car" stands for look it up. or watch ladder 49. not the best feeling] i wasnt thinking when i walked over there with a big smile on my face. cause like an hour earlier, he had gone on a call to a huge working house fire. and they told me. and i had never fealt so empty in my entire life. like hollow. like whatever was inside of me keeping me together just perished. and i fell apart. again. it was the worst feeling of my life. it was just a dream but it fealt so real. and i cried. and cried. once i stopped i was just an empty body. sitting on my porch with nothing to live for anymore. it was horrible. im glad i woke up. thats all. im glad i woke up. and im glad he is at the mall with his mommy. im glad.

i love him. more then my life.

are you sad because youre on your own?

so my day has been amazing. beyond words. like almost nothing bad happened bad today. at all. accept for a little head ache. which was not too bad. i got into school and i was with evan til the bell rang. then i went to class, slept, and chilled. i saw him between all my classes. it was happy making. then he stayed with me @ chorus. it was adorable. melly was trying to get him to go over to her, and i mimed a lasso and pulled him to me. it was so cute. then on the ride home, we sat together, and jazmin goes, "you two are so cute together." i know. we really are. i love him so much... but back to my day. we got home, and i chilled at his house for a hot secondm then he walked me home and chilled for a minute. we kissed. alot. like hook up kisses. it was breath taking. when im with him like that, the rest of the world doesnt exist. its like all my problems, fears, pains, and worries melt away. it was never like that with seth. this is really great. like amazingly great. i wouldnt trade it for anything other then for him to have more time with his dad. that is seriously the only thing i would give this up for. not gonna lie. he is the best thing that has ever happened to me.

But we loved with a love that was more than love

did you know that its a man law to NEVER bring your girlfriend hunting? its bad luck... pft. notttt.

so this morning evan walks out to his couch and says "your 7 minutes late waking up" and i just sort of rolled over groggily until i saw his face. oh my god. waking up to him was glorious. i love him so much... but anyways. i woke up. at 4 AM. and got dressed. evan made a breakfast casserole and bryan [our escort for the day] came over and we ate. evan spilled his milk. it was so cute. then we left.

we drove out to the middle of nowhere. and set ourselves up in a ground blind. basically a camo tent. evan had his gun. i had my glove warmers. lol. we sat for 2 hours. and saw NOTHING. we got bored like the last half hour so we started goofing off. i kept knocking his hat sideways. and it looked so adorable. i was so upset that the camera on my phone was broken. we were making a lot of noise none the less. and then bryan came to get us, and we went to wawa.

we were in wawa, and we were getting coffee. some creeper guy walks up and starts talking to us [i guess he thought all hunters are friends, and we were both wearing camo and orange]. and evans like freakin out cause hes like creepin all over the world. but we get out coffee and go to this guys house.

@ his house, we met up with a bunch of guys that were joining our expedition. we all loaded up and went into the middle of nowhere again.

we were "driving" this time. thats when a few guys walk through the woods making a butt load of noise and scare the deer into running towards the standers [the guys that are waiting to shoot them] me and evan were standers all day. though he didnt shoot anything.

i was like his counter part. i moved in perfect allignment with him all day. never left his side. bryan and this other fellow both bagged a buck each, and i got to see them, all cut open and what not.

after that we went back and ate lunch, and i came home... while evan went back out again. i have work, otherwise i would still be with him.

So I sneak out to the garden to see you. We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew. So close your eyes, escape this town for a little while.

hmph. saturday will be the deciding point of my entire life. im going hunting with evan. erm. that should be interesting. i just know that il find a way to screw it up. im ashley. i always do. il like sneeze or something. or have to pee. lol. that would be me.

hmm.

i love you.

alott.

XD

so ricky slept over evans house last night. it was only there for like 5 minutes after work and already i was the subject of conversation. ricky gave me a hug and i think he may have bruised one or two of my ribs... evan is so cute. he like begged me to stay all night. he said he would trade ricky for me. i was like awww. but i couldnt do that to ricky. he loves evan almost as much as i do. theyre like brothers. im really curious as to what he may have said to him last night... hmm.

i have no voice left. at all. i sound like a dying bird. remember when ricky called me song bird? well this song bird DIED. lol. wow.

so i had work last night. it was crazy. i was outside in the snow at a table selling cocoa and hot dogs and baked goods to cold shoppers at this little shopping village. it was fun til i went numb. then i kept ripping the buns and spilling the cocoa. lol. we did good though. we got $3.15 in tips. thats more then i thought we would make, seeing as how we began the night without a tip jar. one of the customers told us we needed one and donated the first dollar. she was so cute. lol.

i cant believe i was able to drag my butt outta bed this early. i just really couldnt lay there anymore. i miss evan. alot. because he lives across the street, we spend hours on end together EVERYDAY. and yesterday i saw him for 5 minutes and i was too cold and wet to look cute. so. that was a fail meeting.

ugh. my head hurts. i cut the top of my head open when i was playing hide and go seek with evan and caitlynn. its gross. ontop of that, i think im catching a cold. ergh. not good. not good at all.

super long blog cominnn at youu.

okay so i havnt posted in a long time. and i miss you bloggy. my life has been hectic. amazing. heartbreaking. gut wrenching. and any other stupid adjectives that you would normally never use. seth got his ex pregnant while he was still going out with me. shes due july 29th. ugh. that makes me sick. this guy greg wants to punch me in the face for being mean to seth. alot of people hate me for breaking up with him. but you know what... he deserves it. HE CHEATED ON ME! so im not even going to let them tick me off. they can go pound sand. right where the sun doesnt shine.... ricky is still as annoyingly helpful as ever. he is always right. its disgusting. im getting better with my singing. he wants me to sing with his band at rock for cancer. im debating. jazz band is off at a galloping pace. it should be a good season. because i get to sit next to alex. hmm. alex. lol.

darn me. i cant be saying stuff like that anymore. im not a single woman anymore. me and evan. did the expected. everyone knew it was going to happen sooner or later. especially when we stopped sitting thee and making up excuses why we weren't together. but now we are. all is right in the world i asume. i just love him so much. everything is right about him. he doesnt lose his temper, even when i make stupid little ashley mistakes. he gets along famously with my family. hes a fire fighter. he has his life on track. hes clean [i mean drug free of course.] hes so sweet. he knows how to laugh at me. and himself. hes almost as goofy as me. we have very different tastes, but i think we compliment eachother. he has amazing taste in music. he is in band with me. he knows when to just let me be. he loves being with me. he knows when to defend me and when to let me fight my own battles. hes not gross. he waits for me. he makes brownies with me. he hugs me alot. he helps me forget about seth. he understands everything. we do fun stuff together. it doesnt take too much to make him happy. he lives across the street. he loves how silly i am. he gets along with my impossible dad. his laugh is adorable. hes up for suggestions. his best friends are my best friends. he never makes a mountain out of a mole hill. he makes me keep my promises. to myself. he tells me when im annoying. he laughs at me when i get mad over stupid stuff. these are the days. we are perfect for eachother. i love it. it makes me happy. very very happy.

im in a great mood. i have work later. hes at work now. we have conflicting schedules today. but we can handle it. he was at my house til like 10:30 last night. so im sure we can stand a little break. dont want to smother eachother i suppose. :]

The turtle wished that it could fly really high into the sky over rooftops and then dive deep into the sea,

i love that i used to open every single blog with a few lines from a good song. and going back now, reading my old blogs, they all really meant something to me that day. i love how smart i am.

im pretty sure its real... just saying.

dragalchemist: Your a virgin hun you have never had the feeling of the sweet elixir pour through your body,

dragalchemist: Like Pringles, once you pop you can't stop.

hes like the big brother god didnt give me. i love that kid to death. bahahahah.

bahahahahaha.