Have I found you. Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth. Big pill looming.
a friend once told me you like someone for their promising features. you love them for their flaws.
so i guess the old saying, you cannever really appreciate something until youve lost it is true. i had a dream last night that the red car pulled up outside his house. and his mom wasnt home, so i went to see what happened. [for those of you who dont know what the "red car" stands for look it up. or watch ladder 49. not the best feeling] i wasnt thinking when i walked over there with a big smile on my face. cause like an hour earlier, he had gone on a call to a huge working house fire. and they told me. and i had never fealt so empty in my entire life. like hollow. like whatever was inside of me keeping me together just perished. and i fell apart. again. it was the worst feeling of my life. it was just a dream but it fealt so real. and i cried. and cried. once i stopped i was just an empty body. sitting on my porch with nothing to live for anymore. it was horrible. im glad i woke up. thats all. im glad i woke up. and im glad he is at the mall with his mommy. im glad.
i love him. more then my life.
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