mortality

"You've got an awful short memory for direct orders. I told you to stay beside me. I told you to stay right be-****ing-side me."

so dating a firefighter like poisions your mind. you start quoting ladder 49 and backdraft. and when people play with matches you keep your boyfriend on speed dial. its odd. im still getting used to it. i mean. i guess theres no getting used to the fact that the sound of a siren or a fire horn could permantly remove people from your life. its a freaking scary thought. but you cope. you put it at the back of your mind. there are some upsides. like the humor. youre never bored. always laughing. and with him, its like a huge family. his dad knew EVERYONE. and they all know him. and somehow know me. i cant go anywhere without a "hey, thats evans girlfriend." its never boring.

you grow to love it all.

makes me wonder what i will do with my life when he realizes how much of a loser i am.

(:

ilovehimalot.

secret #8- i used to be scared of guns. but only when they werent in someones hands.