hmm. done getting ready for school. too early. free time isnt so bad anymore. i enjoy it actually. its quite nice. quiet. time to think about good things. things i dont usually have time to think about. its like reflecting. [i remember the last time i heard someone use that word.]so last night i explained how there is now an envelope of eternity. and it belongs to us. and how i would die for the chance to just stay in that place in time. sometimes im just deep.
deep... :
its too early. i need coffee. and evan. that will make me feel better. coffee, evan, and a school laptop so i can write my bios. it will be easy. like sunday morning. easy like sunday morning. sunday mornings are never easy. so i lied. it will be easy like the morning of February 21st. that was an easy morning. i liked getting up then.
refresher.
so i straightened my hair today for the first time in eternity. there i go. using that word again. but i did. and its soft. and i like it. i think i look cute today. i think.
i used to live for the times when people would tell me im pretty. i used to simmer in the moment. and enjoy it. but i dont need that sort of acceptance anymore. its nice. ya know. having someone that will love you and think youre beautiful even when youre old and gray.
you should get one. i mean a someone like that. a special someone. thats it. thats the phrase. special someone. evan is my special someone. more like my life. but hey. we all gotta start somewhere right?
i havent blogged like this in a long time. i miss it. i liked saying exactly what i was thinking in the order it came out. for too long i was worried about who read it. now i dont care. its MY blog. thats all.
secret #12- sometimes i spend too much for a cup of coffee. just so i can carry around the cute cup. (:
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