i miss dancing. remember when i used to complain about it? i miss it soo much. im going back. swear it. i went to visit today. i love that place. im going back. i promise.





i need a job. i hate being poor. and asking my parents for money. i need to stop. lol. im pathetic.





i miss evan. hes like... idk. acting funny. it stings. its like... how it used to be. i dunno. im probably being dumb. and dependant. -sigh- im so stupid. stupid stupid little girl.





i have a headache. but i feel... like my old self. and i guess its nice. but im working hard. to change. to be better. so im like... letting myself slip up. i need to shut up. you dont care. psht.





haha.


nicole. this ones for you. <3

-liars. stupid people.

-when people say theyre friends with someone just so someone else likes them.

-people that are over controlling.

-people that always have to be right... and are quick to correct other people.

-tomatoes...dont ask.

-cold rain.

-wet jeans.

-flat/frizzy hair.

-not being able to do things the right way.

- people without any beat.

-people that join band just for the baltimore trip.

-bad music.

-people that wear clothes that dont flatter them... cover your fat self up. jesus.

-people that cram their beliefs down other's throats... or use their religion, or lack thereof, to avoid doing something they dont want to.

-cold weather that lasts too long.

-people telling me i cant do things... or im not good enough.

-when people act like they know me... but dont.

-when people complain about classical music... stfu... theyre better than you.

-when people are in bad moods and want everyone else to be pissy, but cant stand it when other people are in bad moods.

-people that cant control thir sex drives... decency?

-my bad habit of tapping my forehead with my middle finger when i get excited.

-retainers... and the fact that they make me talk like a window licker.

-when people punish others just for the sake of...

-when people tell me im too young to be in love.

-when the same people tell me stories about their teenage lovers...

-when people say it wont last.

ugh. im so hateful. im sorry... :

"she's give half of texas just to change the way he feels."

so have you ever really wanted to be that one person that could change someone's mind? its not a nice feeling. when you thought you could. but you learned you couldnt. its like youre missing an important part. defective, if you will. hmm.

iloveyou.

i don't have commitment issues. and i would appreciate it if you held your tongue. you don't know anything, and the judgement youre passing on me makes you no better. really. have you looked at yourself lately? i doubt you have. you don't seem like the reflection type. i should have known better. than to talk to you abou that. i should have known you were going to blow it all out of proportion. i should have known you were going to take credit where its not due. its not my problem that you have problems keeping your tendencies under control. i would like for you to not blame me for aspects of your life you aren't happy with. just remember, im not the only one that feels this way. and youre not the only friend i have. reserve your comments for someone who needs you.

[17:36] AbCaseyx3: Cause you love him. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.

things are slowly falling back in step. im getting back on track. its going to turn out really good i think.

so my friend. shes a girl. told me she had sex with this guy. and then she told me she lied. and that she had sex with a girl. and she said she was amazing; and loving; and caring; and gentle; and tender; and flawless. she asked if i was creeped out. who am i to tell her that something that makes her that incredibly happy is wrong? im happy for her. im happy she is fixing her life. in a different way than i would prescribe. but hey. whats the illness?

hmm. evan got his license. finally. im so proud of him. XD i love that boy. with all of my being. hes a part of me. and im okay with that.

new. really good. Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini. read it. it will make me happy. (:

BALTIMORE THIS WEEKEND!

bonfire tomorrow night with face. <3

so there are some songs. that just describe my life. and i cant stop listening to them. its especially nice when youre happy with your life. so its like a peppy song. not one about loss or anything like that.

"ricky went to church. to repent. accept it didnt work."

Da-un-do-dow

XD. so apparently im more forceful then i noticed? i dunno. i gave up asking. i hate when people are self centered. its annoying. ughh.

soo im listening to the song Amazed. by Lonestar. me and ev danced to it. it was amazinggg. i love that boy. sooo muchh.

woahh

Annie

oohhh. pray for plagues? who would do that. thats so awful. i dont think God would answer that prayer. a prayer for misery? hmm. thats odd. its like an oxymoron. heh.

i miss the 90s. those ugly capri pants. belly shirts. boy bands. a*teens. pom poms on your socks. those neon swirly laces. spiec girls. aaron carter. lamb chop. gargoyles. bananas in pajamas. power rangers. those ugly wind breaker jackets in awful color combinations. gargoyles. watching toon disney. news boy caps. stupid pacifiers that you wore just because. beanie babies. furbys. nelson mandela. sega. TRL. genocides. clinton.

wow. the 90s. (:

gah. that video completes my life. XD

have you ever really listened to an obama speech? he is a breath taking speech writer. his usage of words to make every sentence sound like a poetic saga is amazing. he knows exactly how to get everyone to listen. everyone. i, for one, am glad that he is our nation's president. the first step in making something happen is getting people to hear what you have to say, and making them believe in your cause. i think that anyone that can silence a crowd of people and bring tears to their eyes and goose bumps to their arms with a simple speech is worth listening to. i know, youre probably saying, can he walk the walk? i believe he can. i believe that he may get off to a bumpy start. but he doesnt seem like a job half done kind of man. i think he will sing his words and move his mountains until things are exactly the way they should be. i am putting all my faith in him.

yes he can.

were on snow day number two. im excited.  XD

tim has school. so i get my face all day. <3

isnt it funny how something that seems to amazing can turn out so horrible? something that you think is fun, someone else can think is god awful and be disgusted by.

so i gave him a few hickeys. i have a few myself. were not haveing sex. no way dude. seriously. take a chill pill.

i love that boy so much.

even though he worries like an old lady.

<3

its a snow day. we have so much snow. like. alot. alot of snow. more then we have had in years. its a freaking blizzard outside. not even lying. and i have no idea where evan is. he was talking about going to nates. i dont want him trying to drive in this. thats how people i know are in a coma. gah. he will call me. its okay. lol. im so pathetic.

so the sno isnt supposed to stop til like noon. so i get to be a bum all day. maybe work on my lit paper? doubt i will. its kicking my butt. lol. its h a r d. not gonna lie.

hmm. i know where evv is now. home. safe a few hundred feet away. (:

iloveyou

[18:55] ashl3ymcmuffin: hes good. really good. not gonna lie... :

[18:56] AbCaseyx3: You guys had sex?

[18:56] ashl3ymcmuffin: nooooo

[18:56] AbCaseyx3: Okay.?

[18:56] ashl3ymcmuffin: he is just so perfect

[18:57] AbCaseyx3: Awwwh!

[18:58] ashl3ymcmuffin: im serious

[18:58] ashl3ymcmuffin: im going to marry him

[18:59] AbCaseyx3: Haahha. I'm gonna be your maide of honor.

[18:59] ashl3ymcmuffin: YES!

[18:59] AbCaseyx3: Okaay.

[18:59] ashl3ymcmuffin: im serious though

[18:59] ashl3ymcmuffin: hes the one

[18:59] AbCaseyx3: I know..you're serious.

[19:00] ashl3ymcmuffin: like. we were talking. and from what people have said, if we broke up, there would be a world wide depression.

[19:02] AbCaseyx3: Haahha. I'd be so upset.

<3