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i wish i could singggggggg

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going to the christmas parade with papa tonight. and apparently babe(:

i missed blogger so much. i had a short fling with tumblr. and i dont think it brought as much to the table as blogger in an odd way. like. it has more to offer, but im not as comfortable with it. how am i supposed to have a trusting relationship with a blog i cant connect with. i feel like one in a million on tumblr. [i know im one in a million on blogger as well, but i am more familiar with it]. i take back what i said before... about never blogging again. i cant not blog. its like... my thing.

so tomorrow is a half day. and everyone accept the band gets to watch the powderpuff football game. we have to go to the middle school and play for a bunch of 7th and 8th graders that pretend to listen to us, but im all actuality they are sitting there zoning out or talking to their friend next to them. i mean, if we actually got to talk to them, like legit, i think we really could convince them to do band, but we play and then talk for a hot second and leave. like. its bull crap. we dont sound good enough to tantalize anyone into joining. i wish i could tell them how good band is. like. we may not sound amazing, but we love what we do. we are like a family. we have our drama, but for the most part, we have eachothers backs. there is a special bond you have when you join. even after you graduate. everyday im still inspired by P. and everyday i get anxious for band class. i really cant even imagine high school without band. and the amazing friends that i have because of it. like. bryan. i love him to pieces. i met him through band. evan. we started talking again because of band. kelsey. band. shanequa. band. like. its amazing. it changed me. a lot. i have a new respect for musicians and a new hate for cheerleaders and football players. haha.

sweet jeezus. im such a geek. i dont even care.

i miss evan. i hate that i havent spoken to him in a while. hes like a piece of me. p.s. he and his family are coming to thanksgiving dinner at my daddys. and i am bringing him to christmas eve at my aunt and uncles. im so excited. this is so real. <3